Sunday, June 15, 2003
ONLY WHEN WE WERE FRESHMEN
Carpe Noctem (Seize the Night) - Year 2 - Start of Week #02
Background Music: "Crazy in Love" by Beyonce feat. Jay-Z
NOTE: a weekly entry that is posted before moving into the dorm inside La Salle. Includes thoughts and ideas at the start of the week.
FIVE days complete with opening lectures and lessons in all the classes. I'm not quite up to it but I know that I need to be up to it. Hopefully I get all the books recommended for these classes. Last week, it was sort of a blur since I was still adjusting to having thousands of new faces scrolling down Lake Avenue.
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The four pillars of my College life. I'll enumerate my thoughts towards them from now on in every Carpe Noctem post.
Academics. I'm tired of depending on classmates to get some information. No, I'm not cheating or anything. But what I mean is, following them around to the stalls or to the library. I'm also not saying there's something wrong with going to the library with them, it's just. That's exactly what I seem to do ONLY. I don't seem to find myself going to the library by myself. Or going to the stalls by myself. Or to the professors by myself during consultation hours to check on my grades. I'm a drifter now. I didn't realize it until I have started to feel some of my classmates lose some confidence in me. I'm not sure if that's true, but it shouldn't be that way. That isn't me.
I want to be the one to march to the stalls to get a photocopy hand-out. I want to be the one with the initiative to go the library.
I still have a problem joining the mainstream recitation circle in the class. I want to be more active in discussions. The thing is, if I don't, I start to drift away from the class and start daydreaming about some whole other issue. Example, the discussion is about Ecology... if I'm not listening... my thoughts are about TV shows that talk about Ecology. My mind starts to drift away. I think If I can recite, it will bind me side by side with the lesson and keep me interested.
This is all part of this solid academic goal I have this year. To stand on my own now and to improve my grades. Like they say, the biggest room in the world is the room of improvement. If possible, I need to borrow some perfectionist attitudes towards my studies.
I don't want to depend on my smart friends all the time. I have to pick up and go forward at my own speed and pace for achievement.
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The Dormitories. One thing I want to fix up and organize by the end of the week... if not by the middle of the week... if not before the week even begins for me on Tuesday. The Wall of Pictures, the Linolium, the Schedules of my room mates, all of it.
I've had a hard time sleeping the past few weeks. I sleep late. I'm like part insomniac now. I surf and finish assignments and articles at night and early morning... and then I wake up early morning as well. Accumulated sleep for an average day? About four hours. Five hours if I'm lucky. This is not good for my health.
And speaking of health, I buy food stock and yet I don't consume the food and snacks I buy immidietly. It all seems to wait a few days before I open a bag of chips or take a can of Coke out of the fridge. With all the food I have, why do I still seem to eat outside and off-campus? Three times at Fiat consecutively last week. Woah.
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Heraldo Filipino. My heart has always been off the edge lately with articles for other sections other than my own. For FEATURE, I get things done swiftly. It's my home section. But for NEWS, I get delayed and for DECRETO I seem to have trouble writing long paragraphs. That isn't a problem in this blog, but it' a problem when it comes to article writing. I keep things straight to the point and therefore it ends up short. I also lack a 2nd point of view in my NEWS articles, something I want to work on in the next set of articles after the current issue.
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AB Comm Channel. Basic shooting was done last summer. I just found out by Joanna B (of HF as well) that some changes have been made to the positions within the organization. Together with her and someone else (i'm not exactly sure which of my other friends here) have become Segment Producers under Com-TV. I'm not even sure about this. Whatever the case is, I just need a txt or call from them so I can start coordinating to their plans.
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The week ahead also involves some Freshmen Orientations. I'm not a freshman anymore, neither are my classmates. But will this be the week we get to see some Broadjourn 1st Years? Or some AB Comm 1st years? I've met one AB Com 1st Year at the dorms already, his name is Tony. But what about Broadjourn?
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