Saturday, December 27, 2003
WHAT'S CHRISTMAS THIS YEAR
The Holiday season, bittersweet with time with the family. My dad is back and I've repeatedly stated I'm happy with it, but outside of the family, I'm quite sad.
Last Christmas, I woke up in the afternoon and spent the rest of daylight inside my room surfing the web and listening to the radio. And its been like that ever since. If I'm not surfing or listening to the radio, I'm watching television. I want to watch lots of movies... movies I haven't seen yet this past year.
I also watch the news.
Let's pause for a moment for the thousands of people in southeastern Iran who suffered that terrible Earthquake.
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Let's also pause for the victims of that fatal gas burst in southwestern China which killed over 200 people and injured thousands.
***
Let's pause for the victims of killer landslides in California and Let us remember those who perished in landslides in southern Leyte in the Philippines.
***
That is Christmas this year. It has disasters all over the world.
Anyways, things on my mind right now? I'm working with Movabletype, the next phase of online journal keeping. I am having second thoughts right now on switching to Movabletype within this Holiday break. Movabletype is a bit confusing... but I'm adjusting. I had no idea it was all geekery with PERL-blah blah and DB-something and FTP-wha?! But I've seen the final results of the program itself... and Movabletype looks delicious.
I'm trying to get a hold on myself when it comes to missing the dorms and my life in La Salle-D. I had no idea I love my friends this much. I'm so affected, SO AFFECTED, when I'm away from them for this long. I see my faults now.
I'm obsessed with friendship.
I'm obsessed with having a best friend.
Speaking of the best friend, I called Lance last night and we spoke on the phone. I think that's all I really need. I need contact with people to keep me sane. When I was talking to Lance, I didn't feel so isolated anymore.
I also had a txt-chat with Mark Panizales. I told him once more that I had no idea letting Badge know my feelings for her and letting Tony know I saw him as another best friend to me would be like stamping my heart and my whole self onto an envelop and sending it away never for it to return.
I feel hollow.
Mark wants to watch movies from the Metro Manila Film Festival (MMFF 2003) and I told him I wanted to watch too with him... to get out of the house and to watch local movies at their best. I haven't been to a single MMFF before.
I said "Crying Ladies" and that one "Malikmata" and perhaps "Filipinas" or even one of those fantasy movies. Hahaha. Anything to keep me busy.
Speaking of busy, tomorrow (Sunday) the entire Putong Clan here in the Philippines will be having a [belated] Christmas Party and the venue is here in our house. And perhaps sometime early next week we'll be going to Villa Escudero! Yes, a short out-of-town trip!
Of course Lance, Nikki, Joy, Rom, and Erika are expected to come over this Monday for "Part Two" of our Christmas Reunion. For New Years' naman 'to. Heheh. I'm planning entertainment.
I'm a mix and mess of emotions.
The Holiday season, bittersweet with time with the family. My dad is back and I've repeatedly stated I'm happy with it, but outside of the family, I'm quite sad.
Last Christmas, I woke up in the afternoon and spent the rest of daylight inside my room surfing the web and listening to the radio. And its been like that ever since. If I'm not surfing or listening to the radio, I'm watching television. I want to watch lots of movies... movies I haven't seen yet this past year.
I also watch the news.
Let's pause for a moment for the thousands of people in southeastern Iran who suffered that terrible Earthquake.
***
Let's also pause for the victims of that fatal gas burst in southwestern China which killed over 200 people and injured thousands.
***
Let's pause for the victims of killer landslides in California and Let us remember those who perished in landslides in southern Leyte in the Philippines.
***
That is Christmas this year. It has disasters all over the world.
Anyways, things on my mind right now? I'm working with Movabletype, the next phase of online journal keeping. I am having second thoughts right now on switching to Movabletype within this Holiday break. Movabletype is a bit confusing... but I'm adjusting. I had no idea it was all geekery with PERL-blah blah and DB-something and FTP-wha?! But I've seen the final results of the program itself... and Movabletype looks delicious.
I'm trying to get a hold on myself when it comes to missing the dorms and my life in La Salle-D. I had no idea I love my friends this much. I'm so affected, SO AFFECTED, when I'm away from them for this long. I see my faults now.
I'm obsessed with friendship.
I'm obsessed with having a best friend.
Speaking of the best friend, I called Lance last night and we spoke on the phone. I think that's all I really need. I need contact with people to keep me sane. When I was talking to Lance, I didn't feel so isolated anymore.
I also had a txt-chat with Mark Panizales. I told him once more that I had no idea letting Badge know my feelings for her and letting Tony know I saw him as another best friend to me would be like stamping my heart and my whole self onto an envelop and sending it away never for it to return.
I feel hollow.
Mark wants to watch movies from the Metro Manila Film Festival (MMFF 2003) and I told him I wanted to watch too with him... to get out of the house and to watch local movies at their best. I haven't been to a single MMFF before.
I said "Crying Ladies" and that one "Malikmata" and perhaps "Filipinas" or even one of those fantasy movies. Hahaha. Anything to keep me busy.
Speaking of busy, tomorrow (Sunday) the entire Putong Clan here in the Philippines will be having a [belated] Christmas Party and the venue is here in our house. And perhaps sometime early next week we'll be going to Villa Escudero! Yes, a short out-of-town trip!
Of course Lance, Nikki, Joy, Rom, and Erika are expected to come over this Monday for "Part Two" of our Christmas Reunion. For New Years' naman 'to. Heheh. I'm planning entertainment.
I'm a mix and mess of emotions.
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