Sunday, February 15, 2004
NIGHTMARE UNDER PRESSURE
Carpe Noctem (Seize the Night) - Year 2 - Starting Week #32
Background Music: "I'm Really Hot" by Missy Elliott
NOTE: This is a weekly blog entry that is posted at the start of the week prior to moving into my dormitory.
I'M SO TIRED. A whole damn weekend of editing some footage for a 30-minute film. We finished it, after two sets of groupmates slept over at my house. During the first night (Friday) it was Arjay and Leah, then on the second night (Satudray) it was Ryan & Rona and Jhen.
Editing has really started to get on my nerves. This will be the last time I plan on editing at home. It's just so pressuring. It just makes pimples erupt from your face in sheer frustration. So many ups and downs to editing. There are times you feel like you're up on top, editing like a professional. Then there are times it feels like the world is against you because of one lousy mistake.
I'm not expecting a high grade on our Final project in Intro to Broadcasting. It's hard to actually explain, but I'm not going to have my group spend 8,000 pesos on editing for a 30-minute film when the possible grade outcome of that is an 88 or 90 to Sir Yabby's fucking standard.
Our group can get as high as 85 for spending more or less than 500 pesos on the whole damn project. We can just catch up with a few good scores on some quizzes, an assignment or two, and voila... you have a good and final grade at the end.
The editing process was tedious. I slept for only two hours from the first night of editing and on the second night of editing I collapsed around 1 o'clock in the morning due to loss of energy. Jhen was also having this movie marathon to keep us awake while Ryan helped out with the transitions.
It was just a total nightmare.
There goes Valentines' Day. Last Saturday marked three things. First, it marked the one year anniversary of the night we partied out at Padi's Point in Las Piñas with Aldrich, Rona, Tope, Joy, and them. Second, it marked the one year anniversary of the formation of the NC14 tropa... which to this day is kinda blurred... but still the thought of a circle of friends having some type of foundation day is worth celebrating.
And third, it marked how obvious now that my interests towards Badge has dissolved or evaporated away. I mean, we didn't even txt each other any greeting of love to each other... not that I was expecting her to txt or anything... but I think she knows by now that after the supposedly most romantic day of the year has passed without me communicating to her shows that there's a hole somewhere.
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Academics/JOU2-1. So much to do. Wish us all the luck.
Heraldo Filipino. The Circus 2004 article, trying to be finished... after being placed on hold due to editing.
AB Comm Channel/ISA. I'm starting to finalize my decision to leave the AB Comm Channel. My health is my number one concern... I should be using the energy devoted to the Comm Channel in a different way by channeling it towards my health and by going to the gym and doing something social... healthy... sporty even...
Dormitory/Tropa. So far, with all the things to keep me busy and keep my mind off of the depression (which has gone away now, sort of)... I'm doing ok. I'm still trying to stand on my own and not depend on a single person so much. And by the way, it's been a few weeks now and Lance and I haven't been that close (like one-on-one talking) to each other about the issues lately. He's so addicted to Ragnarok and I'm keeping myself busy. And I'm giving him and everybody else out there a colder shoulder when it comes to the fucked up best friend shit. No more that. It's starting to work.
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