Sunday, February 01, 2004
THOSE THOUGHTS, WASHED AWAY
The Damage Report - Year 2 - Ending Week #29
Background Music: "Smoke" by N. Imbruglia
NOTE: This is a weekly blog entry that summarizes a series of events of a finished week in and around La Salle.
LIFE LATELY is just this long hang-over. This hang-over of 2003 is still looming in me, constantly making me depressed. Four years ago I was crying because of the fear of losing a perfect friendship with Joy. Four years later in College I'm here confident my friendship with Badge won't be lost if we both decide to lift it up a notch.
Well, that didn't happen.
What did happen was an unanticipated "unreactive" reaction. It was in that gap, that silence, that I realized if I really loved her I would push through. JOU2-1 can tease us together, they can make a scene out of it... but if I really loved her, I would see nothing but her whenever I was in class... I wouldn't need to consult my close friends... if I really loved her, I would be able to just walk up to her and start a usual conversation.
So as far as things go, Badge is someone I admire greatly and have a strong crush on... but when it comes to the true love I'm looking for in the eyes of whoever my first love will be... it wasn't in hers.
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I'm not joking when I say I want to sink into an ocean of vodka. Or in the case of last Monday, Gin and Juice and tall party cups of Red Horse.
Monday - A long-time promise fulfilled
It was at Judy's dorm in Windward where I had an oasis of fun in a desert of unhappiness. While I was there among my friends in AB Comm 2-1, I just felt released of all tension... of all sadness.
I was laughing. I was listening to them talk. Someone even tried recruiting me into a Political Party (yes, as of this past week these Political Parties have sprouted out stronger).
I had long-promised Judy, a fellow balikbayan (from Jordan), that I'd like to join her and her friends in COM2-1 (Conie, Genesis, my old buddy in VPAPU- Jerwyn, etc.) in drinking.
Ben visited La Salle that night and I convinced Lance to join me in finding Judy's. Eventually we got to Judy's and I ended up staying overnight.
It was fun drinking with them. The drinks were endless! After the Gin Pomelo came cases of Red Horse. I made a mistake though. I was in such a hurry to return to La Salle before curfew that I rushed myself when drinking and eventually I was "kicked" by Red Horse far earlier than the rest. I went to bed early and found out they kept drinking up until 1 o'clock in the morning.
Jerwyn and Genesis were good company as well along with Conie and Judy.
Tuesday - Hangover, Volleyball, and LOTR III
[TBTF.]
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