Sunday, November 14, 2004
THINKING OUTSIDE THE BOX
The Damage Report - Year 3 - Ending Week #19
Background Music: "Wherever You Are" by Southborder
NOTE: This is a weekly blog entry that summarizes a series of events of a finished week in and around La Salle.
HAVE YOU EVER had that feeling when for once in your life things made so much sense even in a flurry of social error? I did. This past week was as difficult as it was different from the past fifty plus weeks of being a college student.
With all the emotional baggage I'm carrying right now I can't seem to do anything thorough at the office. I can edit, but I can't write. I haven't done my column yet.
My schedule is wide and has free time that will be consumed by thesis-making and production demands in Cinematography, Development Broadcasting, and Electronic Newsroom II. But until that free time is taken, it still is free time. Freetime to think about life's changes.
I need management
I had an intimate chat with Tom this past week. We ate out at Inazalle BBQ and I treated him to a drink. It was also the first time I drank Miller draft beer.
I've always had great conversations with Tom, but this time it was different. We related to each other the hardships of life these days especially in this new semester. Our work as co-editors at Heraldo Filipino to the times we spend with Leah, his girlfriend and my other close friend.
We shared so much of the sentiments. And it dawned on me this past week that after ten months and twelve days of managing my life on my own --a personal monumental achievement-- I really can depend on someone like him especially in these trying times.
We go way back. I've shared my problems to him since way back. He knows me better than anyone else. Before he was an HF staffer, a Managing Editor, and even before he became Leah's boyfriend.
Tom, thanks so much. You know what I mean even when I haven't said anything yet.
Regular versus Irregular
I now carry a schedule that no one else has. I have moved to a new block section, JOU3-2. I have customized that schedule to give me two classes with my former block JOU3-1. I have advanced a subject from my fourth year curriculum.
Even if I spend more classroom time with JOU3-2, I don't feel it. I see them on Tuesday and I have to wait till Friday and on Saturdays JOU3-2 barely exists.
This is the first time in my college years that this has happened.
Mondays
- No Class
Tuesdays
CINEMATOGRAPHY from 0830 to 1130 with JOU3-2
Wednesdays
*MEDIA ETHICS from 0900 to 1200 with COM4-4
COM. RESEARCH. I from 1400 to 1700 with JOU3-1
Thursdays
- No Class
Fridays
DEV. BROADCASTING from 0800 to 1100 with JOU3-2
PHOTOJOURNALISM from 1400 to 1700 with JOU3-1
Saturdays
REED106 SOCIAL TEACHINGS from 0800 to 1115 with JOU3-2
ELEC. NEWSROOM II from 1215 to 1530 with JOU3-2
Media Ethics with COM4-4 moved to Saturday and it will cause a conflict in my schedule. I might be taking that subject with JOU4-1 or another AB COMM 4th year section.
Wicked dorm setup
I arrived on Monday night and we arranged the room. We put the three beds together again but this time near the back window. The result of that arrangement freed up a lot of space in the room. I had my corner again, like usual. I put up the dreamcatcher lantern I bought in Puerto Galera before. I also installed a warm white florescent light and the result was positive reactions from my room mates and my other dorm mates who passed by.
I'm planning on restoring that cozy corner I'm known to have. I'll put some pictures back up and plaster newspaper clippings or something onto the wall to give it that broadcast journalism edge.
Joel, my dorm mate and friend since I started college, stopped this semester and will be taking a break. When I found out, I was so disappointed. His room mate Neil also moved out and would prefer to commute home.
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
That you belong with me
You might think I don't look
But deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak, it's true
Cause I'm afraid to know the answer
Do you want me too?
Cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
You don't know what you do
Everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak, it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
Do you see me too?
Do you even know you met me?
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
The way that's true
I've waited all my life to cross this line
To the only thing thats true
So I will not hide
It's time to try anything to be with you
All my life I've waited
This is true
TRUE. Ryan Cabrera.
When I first heard this song I loved it's simple beat. The lyrics were the most striking in this song. If you would just listen to the lines in the song it would perfectly fit into what I'm feeling right now.
Something embarassing I said
Me: "I love what you're all wearing! Nice costume!"
Friend: "I'm not wearing a costume."
I was so embarassed. What my friend was wearing that day was really wonderful, that's why I gave out that remark. But that friend of mine was walking with people who where in costumes so I had a wrong impression and was confused. I'm so sorry!
Pictures from this past week
Thinking outside the box
I should at least count my blessings. At least we did see each other this past week. I should be thankful enough about that. Although it's constantly frustrating, I have to just be patient in my actions.
I was struck by my professor in Cinematrography Lab, Sir Valerio, with his key guideline in making short or experimental films. "You must think outside the box."
It was windy this past week and it was also raining on some mornings and afternoons. I ate at Arroz Ja resto for three lunches in a row and everytime I felt the wind gently touch my face, I had wondered if that same wind was gently touching someone's face.
Indeed, the wind that blows the dove is the wind that blows the love. November 20 marks the anniversary of the day I tried to win Badge's heart. That was also the day a close friend could've marked as a one year anniversary.
But look at it, so much has changed. I admit I'm in a place now I never thought I would be. I'm doing things I've never imagined I could be doing.
It's almost November 20. One year will pass on that day after last year's episode. Is there a new story in the making? Is this by any chance simply a coincidence?
The long, weak bridge really is scary.
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