Friday, August 12, 2005
Academic woes
I'm at NEBO with Hermie. This is the second consecutive Friday afternoon we've spent surfing. We did our research for Special Cases. Actually, we're all supposed to go to the Philippine Center for Investigative Journalism (PCIJ) and Center for Media Freedom and Responsibility (CMFR) in Manila, but we've been too busy to leave Dasma so we decided to just surf for it online.
I've selected a journalistic case that is "off the beaten path". I say this because it isn't a case about a reporter filing his grievances in court. I've selected to do a journalistic case on the revolution and controversies that blogging has on Philippine society. I want to research about something that I'm actually a part of. The topic is hot off the presses in the latest issues of magazines from CMFR. They say that blogging might be a new ground for voicing opinions and getting the people involved in mass media. Blogging truly is a powerful outlet.
At the BJPC, things are going on smoothly. The next three weeks will be quiet compared to the past few months. I'm really worried about next month since there will be a clash of titans. The sportsfest, the CLASC group empowerment, the production in docu-field and IJ, the production in video post, the exposure trip of the freshmen, the symposium for the BJPC theme this year, and the most gruesome of them all- THE THESIS!!!
And then in October, it's time for OJT. Currently i'm fixing my papers and i am applying at GMA-7. I think I'm in the middle crowd now, the frontliners have sped ahead. And recently, I've had to revamp my academics. Ms. Enriquez spoke to me the other day and reminded me that to be a great student leader I must also be a model student.
It then hit me. The President of the BJPC has a 1.00 in Rizal (last summer, disqualifying mark for the latest Dean's List) and a devastating 0.00 in Video Post-Production prelim.
I changed groups in Video-post after being disgusted at what happened. I am now working with Hermie, Joyce, Mark, Aya, and Abbie. Len, my group member from the prelims, also jumped on board. Basically our group before dissolved.
I am aiming higher than before. I don't want to be left behind anymore. I don't want my inconsistencies and tardiness to take control of me. I want to prove to myself that I not only want to be an effective student leader, but an effective student.
Anyways, my prelim grades were far too short of astonishing. They reflected my attitude as someone losing balance in the past few months. I am inching to change. Turning 40 minutes late into 20 minutes late. Turning half-baked projects into a lavish cuisine that professors and others will feast on.
I'm tired of being weak. I'm tired of others eating on my weaknesses. I'm doing all I can to drop the unnecessary. I'm doing all I can to drop regressive feelings. I want to train myself physically to look better. I want to train myself mentally to think and act faster. I want to train myself emotionally in how I deal with my personal issues.
College is ending, a career needs to begin. It's time to be strong.
Real. Damn. Strong.
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